Been in this state for quite sometime.
You’ve been there too. May be you still are.
May be I still am.
It’s not easy. For sure. But it has a charm so empowering, that when it leads to some kind of order, you realise how, the chaos, wasn’t at all random.
You look deeper. Then you start joining the dots.
Eureka.
Everything’s for a reason. Reminds me of Oogley from Kung fu Panda
There are no accidents.
Now here you are. Cherishing a better self because of the process of self grind that enabled you to metamorphosise into this lovely better being is yourself that you so dearly love.
Or are atleast proud of.
The part who witnessed the chaos close, standing by you. The one which empowers you to keep going. The one which says, it costs something but what a lesson for life.
This, often becomes your favourite part. Not input because it whispers in your ears, you got it man, but because it believes in you as much at you believe in it. Its existence is again fabricated like a make shift belief.
Works like magic.
Just like faith and coloured pills.
Knowing is believing and believing is changing.
The effort asks to be undertaken so that it can liberate you to the glory that follows.
The entire game is yours. From thinking it can to it can’t and so on.
Rolling between these choices, life happens.